Damn this Fleeting Feeling (introspectual moment here)

There isn’t enough time in the day.

This has been happening more and more recently, but my time has been becoming more and more filled to the brim with stuff I have to do. But its not just stuff like school work that has to be done (even though thats one of them). It also includes things like big decisions. Finally choosing which university I want to go to, following through with financial applications and all the while I’m trying to do work for people online.

I want to make films, this is something I have said many times. It’s what I breath for; to make media. And as much as these will help me do this, I would still like the freedom of being able to do what I want. Being able to make my own projects while still having time to relax and just take a break. The freedom of being a teenager.

But the more time passes, the more I feel that this freedom is passing away. Its leaving my heart and a hole remains. It feels like I’m losing a bit of myself, a bit of my spirit and wonder of being young. 

I know, I know, what first world problems. And the worst thing is that I’m 18, turning 19 soon. Its…. troubling. 

I just can’t get rid of this fleeting feeling. I need to work on something, get my mind off things. Or maybe I should get the sleep I need rather than blogging XD

Damn this fleeting feeling. And damn the fact I’m feeling this at goddam 18!!

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To lighten the mood, here is a super goddam cute sloth making cute noises :-)